Wednesday, 5 December 2012

SIN



I was walking on the pavement. It was a dark lonely night. My right hand shrunk under the pocket of my leather jacket, my eyes starred on my feet, and the hood covering my hair. I was thinking hard on what went wrong with me and Teena that it all fell apart the worse it could have. I used to use and throw girls, but I loved a single girl with my heart and it turned out to be the most painful journey of my life. I was lost in my thoughts and was not aware of the world outside. I felt somebody’s hand holding my hand. I thought that would be my imagination. So I tightened the hold, and I had Goosebumps the same moment because it was a real hand. I looked on my left and there was nobody and then I saw at my hand and I suddenly fell backwards gazing at a hand without a body hanging in the air.

My alarm sounded at the right moment. I woke up giving a smug to myself. That was a wild dream!  But a very strong one. A dream never felt so real before. Negotiating all these thoughts, I set myself up for the work. I reached the door to leave and suddenly a strong wind blew the door close and threw me away hitting the wall. All went black the exact moment.

The next thing I remember is that I was lying in the room. The weird thing is that, it was locked since a year my wife hanged herself from the same fan. I remember that day when I came from office, I called Teena again and again outside the door but there was nobody to answer me. I reached her room looking for her and I fell on my knees seeing her dead body hanging on that same fan.

Lying on that bed was like experiencing that day once again. The date was the same as that day. I started getting freaked in that bed. I rushed towards the door, it was locked. I banged the door as hard as I could, it didn’t open. I shouted for help as loud as I could but no one could hear me. Then I heard a heavy voice exclaiming, “REVENGE!!!”  . The word echoed all over the room and my mind. I went on that bed again, hugging myself as tightly as I could and yelled, “WHO ARE YOU? WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME?”.

The voice had her own way to answer me. The voice took me to the flashback to the day when I was making love to an American chick after 2 years of my marriage with Teena. I and Teena had a love marriage without the permission of our families and hence both of us were not in contact with any of the members of our family. I could see myself doing all the crazy things with that chick. My eyes suddenly stuck to the door where Teena peeked through the door and the tears started rolling down her cheeks. I didn’t know how she got there. I didn’t know that she even saw me doing all that. I followed her to my house. She was crying and yelling to herself blaming everything on her. I was just standing there scrutinizing her. She went upstairs to the guest room, tied the rope on the fan and I could not do anything. I shouted her name and tried to explain her everything but I was in the past and she could not hear me. She hanged herself in front of me and suffered through hell before dying.

I came to the present again. I was crying as hard as I could. That voice was of Teena. I betrayed her and she died because of me. I yelled to her, “KILL ME. I DESERVE IT.”.  And there was no response.  She was gone. She had her revenge. A human can live in any condition he wants but if he doesn’t want to live with himself, he just breaks down into pieces. And that was the condition of me.

I decided to live and suffer my sins. Teena used to love kids. So I spent all my money in building the orphanage and gave my life to those orphans.