My Exemption

What if you are given to choose between staying on the Earth and going to the space? What will you choose? Will you choose leaving behind everything you ever knew and starting your life with a stark fresh start? Would you choose leaving your loved ones on the Earth, only to look at them from the space?

Only one type of person will choose this. A lonely person! A person who has nobody besides him/her. A person who has lost everything in his/her past. A person who has no reason to live on or to move on. He would be happy to have this type of opportunity in his/her path. But what about the person who is not lonely? What about the person who is left with no choice? Who has to leave mother Earth for some or the other reason and sit between the planets only to fill his heart with the memories of his past?

What will you feel if you are asked to take his place?

I will tell you how it feels. Let me start the story of my exempt.

Sitting in a deserted room. I was racing my car on my laptop, trying to win the last stage of the entire game. I have thought of giving my friends a party after winning this extraordinarily addictive game. A commotion made me halt the game and reach for the doors. There was a letter. My heart started throbbing shaking the ground under me and making me follow the instructions on the letter. I started on the streets till I reached the playground where I used to play football a year ago. It was deranged because of rain and construction. I decided to cease my heart to weaken by my emotions and did what was the right thing to do.

I reached at the end of the ground to discover my escort. It looked more like a time machine than a rocket. I sat on the chair inside the circular covering to discover my new living place. Well, it won’t be a home for me, since it would lack the embrace of love in it.

It started rotating, making me feel dizzy and taking me into the world of dreams of my past.

I woke up into the world of strange only to see that the lonely future awaits me. I was not in a circle anymore, rather I was in an oval shaped shell. I could see my bed behind my chair and a hologram of Earth on the glass of oval.

I knew this was coming, I accepted these things. I knew I would have to leave my past behind me to do what I had to do. I reached to the mirage of Earth and felt the shiny glass on my fingertips. I swiped my way to my love. To my wife. To my lovely wife. I didn’t know why I had to be so strong to do the right thing. I had been chosen to do what was needed to be done. But what about my family? What about my parent? What about all the people whom I love and who loves me back more immensely?

On one hand, I should be happy to leave behind such a cruel world. I should be happy to leave my past behind to start my new life. I knew my wife and I were not going good. I was unhappy. She was unhappy, and the fights were the only thing that kept me pinned to her.

“Go away. You can sleep with whatever guy you want to sleep with”, a hoarse voice made a mayhem in the house.

“You are saying that you don’t trust me? I sacrificed everything for you. My luxuries, my friends, my everything. And you think I am sleeping with another guy?” tears rolled down from the beautiful eyes of my wife.

This was the past. My recent past. The fight went on till the dawn became dusk and she went to live with her family. I loved her but I couldn’t trust her. Why was it so?

My family. My mother. I had only my mother to rely on. She was the reason keeping me alive. “But what now? How will she manage without me?” What would she think about her son betraying her and leaving her alone only to rot till the death in a place where there is nobody for her? “I love you mother. I love you with all my heart. I am sorry to leave you like this in the dark. I am very sorry.”

I could feel my eyesight getting blur from the wetness of my exalting emotions. As usual, I decided to numb my soul and think the right thing to do.

“Imagine you have nobody to live to in your past. Imagine you had no wife. No mother. No friends.” I paused at the thought. Friends! I had one of the most unique items as my friends. I swiped my fingers to the way on the Earth that made me peek into the world of my bastard friends.

I made my circle while I was in my school. After then, they were the best things happened to me. We were a group pf 4 and we acted like we were a crowd of 40 people. Wherever we used to visit, we had an art of making every person remember our mischiefs.

“There they are! Planning another mischief”, I gave a short laugh to find myself again in the dismal of the present.

How could you forget everything and everybody, even you had disputes with the ones you love? How would you live a lonely life just to run away from your, so called, “ruined” life?

I don’t want to live this way. Do you? Will you take my position and give me my life back?

L.C.