DISCOVER YOUR INNER SELF

Discover Your Inner Self

‘I can see the silhouette of him riding towards me. He is parting away the molecules of sand peeking out for love. His charming face can be seen from between the blanket of sand spread till the eternity. He is wrapped in the charm of a warrior with the armor of love. His cowboy outfit was covered with the dust of passion. I can see his eyes stuck to mine and reaching for me on his shiny black Arabian horse. My unending wait for my love is finally over. I can hear his heartbeats calling for my smell of passion. It feels like a thousand year, but he is at last in front of me with his crystal deep eyes. He hops down from the horse and bends on his one knee. Offering his hand to me, he asks with a glory in his eyes, to spend my remaining heartbeats feeling his heartbeats. I offer myself to him, reaching out for his hand and glamorously kiss him on his warm wet lips. My passion will be my life forever.’

This is what every other girl dreams of. But this is not the reality, but just a fantasy. In real life, love has infinite kinds of meanings.

In my love story, skip the fantasy part, but all I wanted was somebody who would support and love me as I would love him in the mountain of our lives. I, kind of, found him in my college days. Our love was purely passionate at that time. As most people do, we also made mistake of marrying at a young age, a day after our prom night! I would agree, it was more of a nightmare for me.

My college days were pretty awesome. I had done every possible mischief. I even went into a coma for a week (well that is a long story) because one of my AWESOME nuisances. I thought marriage would be a great indomitable adventure for me. I, Judy, and my ex and first husband Raoul made a pretty good couple in those dependable days. I could always see inevitable and peerless love for me in his eyes. I still envy my past. But there is future to look forward to now.

I was a born dependent child. When young, dependent on parents, then my friends and then my boyfriend. I never ever thought of taking a stand on my own. I was afraid of the outside world that I heard of from the people, best contagious-television and obviously, newspapers. But well, life taught me to fight my fear; that’s the best and the worst thing of life.

I was a sincere, obedient, thrall, grueling idiot. I didn’t know how to handle things. Still I was a good daughter-in-law and a loving wife. I never complained about the born lines made on my palms. I always kept my optimistic attitude in front of my mind; until one day I kicked the nuts of Raoul. Well we will get there.

So I married him the day we both graduated. It was a love marriage. I also had a fantasy about my love. I also expected ‘something’ from my love story. But everybody needs to learn to move on in life.

My first year of the marriage went buttery smooth and it stood a li’l on my expectations. My first anniversary was the turning point of my life. I didn’t understand what happened to his love for me. It turned to core hatred. He started drinking and bickering for the first month. For me those were the ups and downs of the life that I was confronting with my optimistic attitude. But instead it turned into my nightmares.

‘Time heals everything’ but time also spreads infection. The yelling turned to bruises which turned to bleeding. All my fantasy for love turned sour. I couldn’t even share my problems with my family; as I married against their will. I bear the wail for a month more but then came my off-limit point.

I can still remember every moment of that day. It was August, 4. The same day we had our first kiss two years ago. Also, it was the day when I found my independency in me. Imagine the person you could die for, and now imagine kicking him on his balls.

YES, I did that and I am proud of my legs for supporting me when everybody else desolated me. I was the one who filed the paper for divorce. Like every other guy, he begged me not to leave him, but I was not the one I was before marriage. It brought a drastic change in my life. It made me find myself in the crowd of fictitious and pretentious people.

‘One should never revert to his/her pages of their books’. My decision was a hard one and I could feel myself frail sometimes; but being strong at those times is called life. I understood that moving on always bring you good fortune if you ‘believe in yourself’.

At present I am a wildlife photographer. I stood for my dream of exploring the world. I got things straighten-up with my family and friends. And now, I am living in my own farm house with the rooms of memories in my heart, with my love searching its way towards me.

love or sacrifice??

Cowardice or Courageous?

Narrator:

Kiara is a smart, bright, intellectual girl of age around 19 with

attractive brownish-blue eyes and curly black hair. She wants to

depict her story in front of all the people who thinks that suicide is

always the only solution of heartbreak.

Now she herself will narrate her story.

Scene 1:

“I am going to run away from this world and never revert. I am

going to stop this heart ache forever. My heart will never cry

again. My soul will never crush again. I need no companion in my

life. I won’t even let my shadow leave a trail to this universe. My

eyes will never ever swell from my past. I am taking my soul away

from all those emotions”, I soliloquized and arranged myself on

the top of a chair, below a cursed rope ready to take her life. My

hair tangled from the tornado of past memories playing in front of

my eyes. I stood numb watching my memories penetrating from

the wind from the open view of the window.

Scene 2:

I was sitting on the table of my class with my back to the

blackboard and front to the window. Those were my innocent

THIS IS NOT THE END

KAASH

 Every elder person say this word. 'I wish I did it at the right time', 'I wish'. The most common mistake of human being is to leave the opportunity at the right time, and then regret it.

 You ever thought what were the common mistakes made by common people. Let me simplify it for you:
 1. They didn't keep their eyes open all the time. 
2. They took life easy and light. 
3. They didn't follow their heart. 
4. They worked from heart and not from the mind.
 5. They didn't know the value of time. 
And so on. 

Now is the best time to improvise yourself. Every moment is an opportunity, you just have to recognize the right opportunity at the right time. Don't wait for anything or anybody, or else, soon you will also become a patient of this 'kaash'. 

L.C.

Believe

The world under you works on how you want it to. If you believe in yourself, everything will happen on what you want. May be not 'how' you want. If you are good to the world, it will be good to you but in it's own way. You will get what is written on your hands. But it is totally on you how you will get it. For example, if you think you are alone, you will feel more lonely. Stop thinking so much. Enjoy the journey of your life. Because destiny is written, but journey is made by you. Everybody is born alone and will die alone. This is the bitter truth of life. Only you can and have to handle your own life. This is how life works. It makes difference on how many people care for you and will always be on your back. You are lucky to have those counts on your finger. L.C

Evil VS Good

Every soul in this universe has an evil as well as a humble part. The difference comes on how much one part dominates the other. Don't leave it to your fate, rather make your own. Let your soul decide which part you want yourself to be dominated by. Every good thought is chased by an evil thought. But let's take it as a strength for staying aware of the surrounding evil souls. Kindness suffers most of the times and that's where the real test comes. If you didn't let your evil part overcome your kind part, you are already a winner. Now, if you are one of those people who consider that the universe is only evil to you, you are just unlucky to use your heart and your optimistic side over your practical soul. If you have tried using that part and failed, you are still a big loser, because you have let yourselves be controlled by the evil inside you. L.C.

SPEAK GOOD

You know why does reading 'bhagwat gita' gives peace to a person? The reason is beyond the stories. It is subconsciously stored in your mind, because you have heard it a many times. Good things happen when you feel good. And you feel good when you think good. And you think good when you say good. Stop wasting your time in criticising. Time is precious. It will do no good to you, but will just spoil your day. Keep your inner peace happy. Learn to forgive. Learn to give. Learn to live. Speak good words. And then observe your life. And I am not telling to get fooled by somebody. There's a whole big world out there. L.C.

PaReNtS

Parents are priceless. If your parents love you, you are the luckiest person on this Earth. And it doesn't mean that you have all the luxuries you dream of, but it just means you are not one of those who doesn't have anybody to get love from.

So respect them, and most importantly love them back. They hold your little fingers and teach you how to live. And when their loose and weak hands need you, you are the first one to break their heart. Think about it if you disrespect your parents.

L.C

ChIlDhOOd

Childhood is a very important part of a person's life. It decides the personality and character of a person. Even psychologists approve on this fact that the psychology of mind of any person is widely dependent on the way a person spends his childhood.

For example, if a person has gone through the childhood with domestic violence, his psychology would be more introvert and shy. If the childhood of a person was normal and healthy, his nature would be fair with everyone around him. If his parents always used to scold him and avoid his wishes, he would become lazy and won't take initiatives in anything in future. If he was taken care of extremely and did not let him do his own works, he would become dependent when older.

People, parents, teenagers, children, never ever ruin anybody's childhood. It's the most important phase of a person. Respect this phase! The moments spent in childhood always stay in a person's mind in some or the other way like a permanent memory whether he remember it or not. Let a child do what his heart says, but it also doesn't mean that he is free to do the wrong things. But don't make his childhood suffer.

India is way much backward in prohibiting child employment. But it's time for us to stand and take a step in our environment.

L.C.

EmPtInEss

Rise above yourself,
World is not hard,
Understand your heart,
And you'll be living.

Do you feel lonely?
Has somebody left you , or betrayed you ?
Bullshit!!! You have all the things you need. Just look at the things you have. Instead of the ones you don't. You are blessed with every happiness you deserve in this world. Nurture them, instead of complaining and arguing about everything else.

Losing someone or something is a part of life. That's why people call it hard. But actually it is just giving and teaching you all that needs to be done. Sacrificing is much easier than living with what your heart wants. Understand your deepest thoughts. You would be happy when you listen to your heart. And live with what you want. The road would be tougher, but it would be much happier.

Everybody in this world has come alone and will go alone. But you are never really alone when you are breathing. When you feel like there is no one at your back, you will always find God holding on to you. Have faith in yourself, it doesn't matter whether somebody left or betrayed you, what matters is that you didn't let the world drown you under it's vain.

L.C