I knew
where I was. I knew what I was. I wanted to fly from the cliff. I ended up
falling into an abyss. I wanted the feeling of happiness. I ended up feeling
desolated. I wish I could have it all. I forgot that no one can have it all.
I am
the heaven. I am the hell. I am triumphant. I am failure. I am everything.
Lies within
me is me. Lies above me is me. My eyes are closed, while my eyes are open. My ears
are blocked, while the sound is present.
Who am I
anymore? I am searching for the person. The person who lies within me like a
host, but it is not me. Where am I? I can’t recognize. My fate is blurred. The truth
has become pale. The lies are on the verge of its success.
Save me
or I will fall. Fall into the abyss again. Will never be able to climb up
again.
Hold me
or I will fall apart. Like leaves in Autumn, searching for its own place.
Heed me
as a child. Because I am no more an adult. I am a Searching Soul.
Look at
me with desire. Desire of a needed person. Want me as an Aspire. An aspiration
of the searched souls.
I want
this. I want that. What do I want? Tell me or I will crave for everything. Tell
me or I will die for everything.
This is
the world of innocence. This is the world of conspiracy. We have it all here,
and none here.
I am
looking for someone. The one who could find me in me.
Help me.
Help the Searching Soul.
Look at
me. I am standing right here. With a ghost beside me. Surrounded by the illusion
of a fake world. The illusion that could eat me up into pieces.
I am
right here. Waiting for you. Waiting the one and my only soul. Where are you? Are
you there, or are you gone?
Answer me.
I am waiting for you.
Let me
hold you close. Let me hold you from far away.
You are
my everything. You will be my everything.
Just don’t
let me go away from you. Let me be your Searching Soul for lifetime; and my
soul will be searched by me.
Let my
soul be searched by me!
Here,
happiness isn’t the key. Here success isn’t the key. Here, you are the key.
Let my
soul be searched. Let me search my soul in yours. Let me walk on your path. Let
me fall on your abyss. Let me fly in your sky. But don’t let be the Searching Soul
anymore.
I want
to be the Searched Soul.
Let me
be the Searched Soul.
L.C.